My Life Resembled a Rag Quilt
Did you ever see your life as disposable? Wonder if you weren’t there, who would notice? Laugh on the outside while crying on the inside? Want someone to notice then shy away if they did? Have people tell you “cheer up” or “smile, life isn’t that bad.” Yes? You have? Me too!
So you‘re like me, your life resembles a rag quilt.
Everyone starts life equally…at conception. From that moment on, we travel different paths to get where we’re going in life. Some, it seems, are destined to be perfect and then, for the rest of us…well, for me, I felt used and tossed aside, and about as a limp as a dish rag.
For me, I had mostly a good childhood, but some really bad things happened. And it was those bad things that set me up to believe the statements I wrote above. I eventually grew to adulthood, married my high school sweetheart.
My husband also had a great childhood, but with a few bad things happening to him along the way so he also was kind of ragged looking. We brought our ragged lives together and then had two great sons. Things were great, we looked like the happiest of couples, yet, deep down, inside, I knew something wasn’t right. Even though I was loved by an incredible husband and two sons, I felt “ragged.”
I needed my life to be “re-sewn” with stitching only God could create
So in my early thirties, when I just couldn’t make life work anymore, I got down on my knees, desperate. I had been a Christian from the time I was eight years old, but it wasn’t until I found myself desperate, at my end, feeling as if I wasn’t even a good rag anymore, that I finally said “God, help.”
I wish I could tell you from that moment on, everything was perfect, that I understood life, I never made another mistake, everyone treated me fairly, life was a bed of roses, it wasn’t like that. BUT! It was from that moment on I knew, without a shadow of a doubt, that I had a True Friend, a Confidant, a Great Counselor, Someone in my corner, all the time.
And it was at that moment in my life, God began stitching the ragged pieces of my life back together. He lovingly sewed the scraps with stitches He Himself placed. It could only be Him because I never would have placed a few of the pieces in where He did, pieces I see now were hand chosen by Him…People or opportunities, what I thought were accidents or hard, harsh times, were actually, pieces He chose and allowed to enter my Rag Quilt called “My Life.”
Today, as I make rag quilts, I use old blue jeans, shirts destined for the rag pile, blankets or old sheets that have seen better days. I use all this tossed aside, forgotten items to make something beautiful, something useful and something to be loved once again. As I sew these rags together, I see how God has stitched me together again. He has taken the broken, forgotten, fragile person I once was and turned me into a bold speaking, armor-bearer for Him.
Are you to the point of needing your own “re-stitching” by God? Have you felt as if your life resembles a rag quilt?
Here are a few encouraging verses from the book of Ephesians and Philippians which I have used over and over when I have felt like a “rag quilt.”
- Ephesians 1:3 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places in Christ.
- Ephesians 4:24 Put on the new self, which in the likeness of God has been created in righteousness and holiness of the truth.
- Ephesians 4:7 But to each one of us grace was given according to the measure of Christ’s gift.
- Ephesians 5:20 Always giving thanks for all things in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ to God even the Father.
- Philippians 1:6 For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus.
- Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.
- Philippians 3:12 Not that I have already obtained it, or have already become perfect, but I press on in order that I may lay hold of that for which also I was laid hold of by Christ Jesus.
- Philippians 3:13 I do not regard myself as having laid hold of it yet, but one thing I do, forgetting what lies behind and reaching forward to what lies ahead.
- Philippians 4:4 Rejoice in the Lord always, again I will say, Rejoice!
- Philippians 4:6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your request be made known to God.
- Philippians 4:19 And my God shall supply all your needs according to his riches in glory.
- Philippians 4: 10 Finally, be strong in the Lord, and in the strength of His might.